Happening Awareness

Awareness - this one word which I felt I had taken it for granted for quite sometime now. And some days back this is what I realized.

We all are aware of what is 'happening' outside us, right? Someone is reading, someone is talking, walking, shouting etc. At the same time, there is something always 'happening' inside us; inside our body-mind consciousness.

Are we aware of this? To experience awareness, we need to experience the 'happening' first.

There is something happening inside us all the time. Say when we are angry, there is some thing happening inside; when we are happy there is something else happening; when we are feverish, there is something else. The way we act or react to anything is because of this phenomenon of 'happening'! The whole consciousness is nothing but an 'happening'. It is fully dynamic, not even one moment of dullness!

And there are multiple factors which influence this 'happening' inside us; like food, friendship, sadhana, seva, satsang, planetary positions etc. Can we become aware of this happening? Once we become aware of this, there is an immediate disconnect between 'YOU' and your body. We become a sakshi(Observer) to what is happening.

The whole life can be spent in just being aware of whats happening all over. And this helps in willingly making changes to how we feel and act. For e.g. when we feel lazy, the moment we realize that - "Oh, I am feeling lazy. This is what laziness is". Thats it, that very moment we can take a rational decision and come out of that.

The more and more we become aware of this happening, we start smiling more. :-)
But now, is this awareness also a 'happening'? I believe so! What do you feel?